::All Cried Out::
Even the lovers makes a mistake
sometimes
Like any other
Fall out and lose my mind
And I’m sorry for the things I did
For your teardrops over words I said
Can you forgive me ??
And open your heart once again ??
Yeah, it’s true
Without you I would fall apart
Whatever happened
I know that I was wrong, oh yes
Can you believe me
Maybe your faith is gone, but is
it?
But I love you and I always will
So I wonder if you want me still??
I’d do anything to make it up to
you
So please understand ..
I can see that you’ve been crying
You can’t hide it with a lie
What’s the use in you denying
That what you have is wrong
I heard him promise you forever
But forever’s come and gone
Baby, he would say whatever
It takes to keep you blind
To the truth between the lines..
You deserve much better
Don’t give loneliness a chance
‘Cause I just can’t be friends
~ One luv
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I Quit~ !!
Damn !!
I said once i’m still learning various emotions as a human being have and this one is a level i still don’t understand. How come a pain feels so good. It damn hurt, but the more painful the more sweet it tasted. A memory is actually just a tiny working brain cell and causes electric cloud throughout each neurons. But how come it affect me so big and as i typed this writting i’m still shaking all over?
Funny if i remembered. A couples of month before i met this person. Candy sweet lolipop taste gum drop gummy sugar was all we had. that was the "right" time i ever been in love… and ever be. We had so much and i try to control my self by letting go what i really feel like; getting rid of the grey in me and blend in as one of them. It was a huge change; i change for a heart i couldn’t find elsewhere. I pray to God as i really mean it. Blessing and blessing is what i always mentioned in nights of hope and peacefulness. But then it began to change, in the light i found another light but dimmer.. and starting to fade. We start to lose our communications..
Here were things said after and things said before and words left
hanging in between, but what I can most remember about mentally
quitting my job today was totally insane; Two vacant windows upon a
poker face that I was too tired or too un-inspired to read. After all,
the hand I’d been dealt was meaningless. I had nothing left to loose.
The fact that I even gave a shit about this job more was the bluff
of a life-time, and i called it. Suddenly the weight of my
unaffectedness became so burdensome, the cash payout meant less than
nothing. I’d ‘ve rather be struck by lightening than sleepwalk through
another day of corporate slavery. Hell, my bags were packed already.
Mentally I’d already cleaned house. Un-locked the shackles, spread my
wings. But just to ease my jilted ego, I’ll let myself believe I folded.
Had I played my cards right, I most likely would have walked from
the table a richer boy. But at this point, my pride was worth more
than a few thousand dollars.
And for all of you who know me, who have heard my broken record
sobstory for far too long–let us all raise our glasses tonight in
celebratory bliss:
The indentured servant has finally wriggled free of the shackles, or shall I say,
escaped solitary confinement to a caricature I was playing the imposter of
for the past 7 years.
When I walked out today at 0908am, I wondered where the hell I was
headed, and what direction I should take. My future was more uncertain
than it had ever been.
However, all the fear was a gamble I was completely willing to risk.
That subtle lightness I encountered as I emerged from the one thousand
times recycled air of the KL City, made it all
worthwhile.
Suddenly I was free.
Finally I could breathe eventho’ my heart is so pain
Although directionless and without a future to rely upon, I found
myself swimming through the realm of possibility that I chose to be my
New Life.
So many are tortured by the fear of what remains behind the door of
everything that is not out everyday. The torturous routine. And we
wonder, what would it be like
to feel that ..
and be this ..
and experience just for a moment, a world beyond our dome of limitation.
Well, today my friends I have crossed over.
I have walked the tightrope and tumbled to the ground.
And the report from the pavement is quite sunny because at the end of the day,
there exists a net to break your fall,
whether or not you choose to believe it.
Fear may prevent you from believing it-but the laws of nature remain intact:
A body in motion will stay in motion, and a body of rest will stay at rest.
All I can say now, is that the velocity of this transition has given me wings,
Today I have found myself at the bottom of my fate,
And there is nowhere left to soar-
Just a simple confessions to myself that the little " L " is still there…..
I’m totally F up..
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Oh dear..
Manglish,
which is basically the dark side of
Malaysian English. Well, here are some funny examples.
Malaysia English vs British English … Who says our English is teruk? Just see
below - Ours is simple,short,concise, straight-to-point, effective etc. The
English did invent the English Language, but they cannot use it economically
when communicating their intentions. Compare these phrases that Malaysians and
Britons use to say the same thing:
WHEN GIVING A CUSTOMER BAD NEWS
Britons: I’m sorry, Sir, but we don’t seem to have the sweater you want in your
size, but if you give me a moment, I can call the other outlets for you.
Malaysians: No Stock.
RETURNING A CALL
Britons: Hello, this is John Smith. Did anyone page for me a few moments ago?
Malaysians: Hallo, who page?
ASKING SOMEONE TO MAKE WAY
Britons: Excuse me, I’d like to get by. Would you please make way?
Malaysians: S-kew me / X-Cercise Me
WHEN SOMEONE OFFERS TO PAY
Britons: Hey, put your wallet away, this drink is on me.
Malaysians:No-need, lah.
WHEN ASKING FOR PERMISSION
Britons: Excuse me, but do you think it would be possible for me to enter through
this door?
Malaysians: (pointing the door) can ar?
WHEN ENTERTAINING
Britons: Please make yourself right at home.
Malaysians: Don’t be shy, lah!
WHEN DOUBTING SOMEONE
Britons: I don’t recall you giving me the money.
Malaysians: Where got?
WHEN DECLINING AN OFFER
Britons: I’d prefer not to do that, if you don’t mind.
Malaysians: Doe-waaaan!
IN DISAGREEING ON A TOPIC OF DISCUSSION
Britons: Err. Tom, I have to stop you there. I understand where you’re coming
from, but I really have to disagree with what you said about the issue.
Malaysians: You mad, ah?
WHEN ASKING SOMEONE TO LOWER THEIR VOICE.
Britons: Excuse me, but could you please ! lower your voice, I’m trying to
concentrate over here.
Malaysians: Shaddap lah!
WHEN ASKING SOMEONE IF HE/SHE KNOWS YOU.
Britons: Excuse me, but I noticed you staring at me for some time. Do I know
you?
Malaysians: See what, see what?
WHEN ASSESSING A TIGHT SITUATION.
Britons: We seem to be in a bit of a predicament at the moment.
Malaysians: Die-lah!!
WHEN TRYING TO FIND OUT WHAT HAD HAPPENED
Britons: Will someone tell me what has just happened?
Malaysians: Wat happen Why liedat????ADUI!!! (jumping to conclusion)
WHEN SOME ONE DID SOMETHING WRONG
Britons: This isn’t the way to do it. Here, let me show you.
Malaysians:Hoi!!!u pig ar liedat also doe no how to do!!!!
So there you have it. I guess they have a point, sometimes the Malaysian way of
saying things is indeed more concise and to the point. But this is not always the
case..!!
Is my Manglish improving? I wonder… 
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